5 Weeks: B*tch with Big Tits

I woke up to a text message from a friend checking on how I've been feeling and I replied, "Like a raging b*tch with big tits."


-And that is exactly how I would sum up my pregnancy only 5 weeks in.

I miscarried early (8 weeks) in my first pregnancy but, I don't remember feeling like this. I am extremely tired to the point that it feels like a joke -leaving me to question how ANYONE (especially the spouse of a pregnant woman) makes it out alive. The fatigue is truly unreal and the only thing that gives me a small boost of energy is food.

As for food, I wouldn't say that my appetite has drastically increased but, the desire to eat for comfort is through the roof -it's the only thing I want to do -when I'm not sleeping.  Sleeping is my absolute favorite thing to do right now and no amount of sleep ever feels like enough. I could sleep right through the next 35 weeks, no problem.

The very first symptom I had was tender and full boobs! Since before my positive test I have felt like a 6 year old child who stuffed unproportionately and oversizede balloons in her shirt where boobs should be. They are so full and heavy and make me feel like I'm walking around very Pamela Anderson-esque, although they haven't increased in size much ~thankfully.

Anddd the b*tchiness is a new everyday friend, hormones I guess? Before I lived life pretty unbothered and now, when any minor inconsistency hits me I feel the absolute urging need to verbalize that.

I'm working on the b*tchiness but pregnancy has empowered me to stand up for myself in areas of life where I previously didn't. I've always believed in the spirituality of things and pregnancy is by far one of the most spiritual experiences a woman can go through. I feel like this new empowerment is part of my journey to build me as a mother who is resilient where needed.






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  1. Your self description literally made me laugh out loud! I've never been pregnant, but how you describe it is exactly how I imagine it to be. Hope you're able to get your energy back and that your boobs make you feel less miserable!

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    1. Finding the humor through the awkward things in life makes life more enjoyable. Glad it brought you laughter. And actually, I am adjusting to my new friends :) xo-Jess

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  2. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. This is powerful and also very helpful. I'm not a mom yet but post like this can definitely prepare you for anything that might come this way! You're doing great! Keep pushing through love!

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    1. Thank you so much for the sweet comment. Motherhood is something my soul has craved deeply for a long time; I am so grateful to be on this journey and want to provide a very honest account of what I am going through.

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  3. Oh goodness! Pregnancy seems like an incredible blessing served with a side of an incredible burden. Here's to hoping you feel better soon!

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    1. Thank you I am now 10 weeks and I feel like I have adjusted well to the changes that felt like they were weighing me down early on. I am loving every minute of this journey and am so grateful.

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